Do you ever get tired of people telling you you are “too much”?… “Too negative 👎🏻.” “Too emotional 😭 😆.” “Too loud.” ….. and so on…. This blog is for you.
This one won’t be about traveling, unless I’m referring to the progress I’ve made over the years within myself. Basically, I want to write this to myself… or to anyone else who is currently struggling with being authentic to their soul.
I spent many years feeling very shy, awkward and reserved. Why? Because I’m weird. I’m not the norm. I’m sensitive, I’m opinionated, I’m negative, I’m artistic, I’m into anime, Disney and Horror. I like dark dark things… such as reading about ghosts, demons and CSI related topics. I grew up Gothic and offbeat.
I can read people’s minds sometimes, just because I’m so very sensitive to how others are feeling. It makes me uncomfortable and paranoid… at least half of the time. Because of these things, it’s always been so so difficult for me to find friends. Friends who don’t mind me being paranoid, negative or inconsolable at times. Friends who don’t mind having deep conversations that reach into the darkest part of our souls. But you know what… I’ve finally found them, and I learned something. And pay attention to this, because it’s important:
If the people in your life who are important to you cannot handle you at your worst, they don’t deserve to be in your life when you’re at your best.—-
Because, guess what? During my best and highest moments, I’m creating, inspiring and trying so hard to be the best friend/Mom/spouse/person/dancer I can be.
No one is perfect, and no one should expect YOU to be. We can not be ON all of the time. People get depressed. People get upset and mad. People get their feelings hurt. People fail and cry…. and question their friendships sometimes. It’s a part of life. But if those people who you care about so very much, also care about you… they will love you no matter what.
So, dear self… Stop caring how others perceive you. I enjoy dark things like Zombie films, ghost stories and morbid humor. I like to watch Japanese anime, and get a little too excited whenever Sailor Moon comes on! I’m overly emotional, and very passionate about everything I do. If anyone doesn’t like who you are…
They can get out. 😉 I’ve suffered through a life time’s worth of trying to dull my personality and my shine down, just because it makes other people uncomfortable. I’m done with that. Forever. I officially choose to live for myself and those I love unconditionally… and no one else.
Life is too short to be someone YOU are not. Be the awesome that is you, and others will love it, or not… but who cares! “Let it go!” — That way we can start being real with one another, instead of fake vessels who are pretending! Authenticity. FIN.